Wanting to shut down and just go away
Well today has been one full of frustrations and let downs and arms covered in spots and bruises.
I am still battling lots of health issues and had to go to the allergist for some testing.
Boy did they put me through the test. I had 75 different little needles and scratches And then when I showed up with some real positive test. So they did more in depth testing real needles in the arm I had to have 12 shots in my left arm.
I look like a junkie!! from all the holes and bruises that I have.
I did find out that I am allergic to Rice, Cinnamon, hops, peanuts, And also myself and then a mixture of things that is in the air. I have to go and get a CT scan of the Head to check out the sinus area to see what the damage is inside. Also start meds to get my asthma under control.
Then to top it off my diabetes AC1 took a big jump from 6.0 to 8.3
Then it looks like some the time wanted for us to get away for our anniversary is not going to happen due work schedules. Things just feel like they are just starting to fall into hole of darkness and with each day one more let down is happing.
I feel like I always have a Black cloud over my head that is pouring more and more of a down on my head. I feel like I just want to find a dark closet and hide in the back of it and make the world go away.
metalmom said:
Sorry to hear about your vacation. I know how you were both looking forward to it.
Lock yourselves in the house for a weekend (or even 24 hours.) Get a good “island” movie (like “Cocktail”) mix up some Margheritas and find a nice fish to grill for dinner. Put some Jamaican music in the cd player and just ‘be alone’ together.
*oh yeah, shut off the phone and don’t answer the door!*
Fantastagirl said:
Oh, that’s too bad about your vacation. !Sorry!I hope that you are feeling better and soon!
Carolyn said:
Metalmom. Sounds like fun other than the Drinking. I have a drinking problem that wants to rear its ugly head and I have to keep it chained up.
Thanks Fantastagirl
BlondeBlogger said:
Oh, Carolyn, I’m so sorry to hear that things have been so rough. I wish there was something I could do. Please know you’ll be in my thoughts and prayers. And email me if you ever need to vent. I promise I’ll always be here to listen.
(On a much lighter sidenote to MetalMom- I tried commenting at your site today but couldn’t get the anti-spam code to show up. Sorry!)
BlondeBlogger said:
Just checking in to see how you are. I hope you’re still reading comments and I pray that you’re feeling better. We miss you!